June 18, 2010

I had a puff yesterday and the taste of nicotine was delightful. It felt very good to smoke  and I was extremely tempted to have just that one cigarette. It is quite unbelievable, the kind of rationalization that starts working in your head when your temptation is just about to get the better of you. It took a couple of minutes to get the "evil me" of of my head. I finally resisted the temptation and felt happy about having passed the small test.

This again underscores my conclusion that I am a nicotine addict for life. The best that I could do is to keep it under control.